Before the Storm musings

10 July 2011

I’m currently working fairly hard at finishing my third book, which is why I am posting a bit more to Twitter in a desperate attempt to distract myself from the enormity of what I am doing, while all the while I’m thinking about how I’m going to publicise it; if I’ve made the right decision in turning my back on agents and traditional publishers and if anyone will actually read it once it is out, let alone buy a copy!

It’s all a bit scary so I’m dragging things out a bit, clinging on to the writer process before it comes to an end. Of course, I’m not exactly assisted in my endeavours by having to work from home (this is great and I’m really fortunate to be able to do this but I feel really guilty if I am awake and in front of the laptop and not working instead of writing, which means that I don’t get much writing done and end each day in a fug of self pitying woe) or by the fact that my family make constant relentless demands on my time and energy so I can never quite LOSE myself in my writing.

I know that within a minute of opening a document someone is going to want to talk to me or ask a question or demand feeding or something (since starting this post, I’ve been interrupted 6869693 times, answered 68689 questions, soundly scolded the pair of them once, been upstairs three times and now have a headache) and end up feeling fidgety and dissatisfied with everything that I manage to do, because I know it could be so much better if I just had some guilt free time to myself to really get on with it.

Don’t worry – I don’t just wallow in misery, every so often I allow myself to feel fairly proud of how much I have achieved, despite having a learning disability that has dented my confidence to a pretty heinous degree. I don’t think I will ever personally be anything other than shy, hesitant and uncertain, but when I write all of that just melts away.

I’ll get it finished though. As God is my witness, this book will be finished by Christmas. In fact, I’m aiming for a Christmas release so it’d better be finished before then! I’m really proud of it and can’t wait until people get to have a read – maybe I’ll post a little excerpt for you sometime this week…

I’m starting to get really excited about my fourth book and am having a great time reading about the young Louis XIV and Henrietta Maria and her children. I’ll be writing some posts about them as I go along, which means this blog may lose a bit of its eighteenth century flavour, but I think you can all handle that…

 

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